Today- The Day We Leave for Rwanda.

The day has come- the day that we’ve prayed for, cried over and fought for and after many months of planning, today is the day we leave for Rwanda.

I’m a big ball of emotions right now ranging from excitement to nervousness with a little bit of anxiety and exhaustion mixed in there. I do feel better now that my bags are packed and everything is squared away with the dogs but I’m a worrier by nature. I must have said a hundred times this weekend “I’ll feel better when I’ve got everything together” or “I’m just ready to be there so I can stop worrying about it”.

Worrying has actually been in the forefront of my prayers lately. With a trip of this proportion {and my free-spirited husband leading it} there is so much to consider, remember and get done. I’ve prayed for a peace and understanding that no matter what happens, God’s got it. There’s no need for me to step in and try to take the reigns but that is often easier said than done. I’ve had to accept the fact that I’m sure we will forget something and I’m 100% positive there are a few thank you cards that still need to be written but at some point, you have to stop and remember “We are only two people. God will stretch us just as far as he wants”.

I can only imagine how much God will, in fact, stretch me over the next two weeks. Something else that I’ve been praying about is my ability to not completely break down in Rwanda. I’m a crier, y’all. I cry at commercials, Disney movies, pretty much any time my Dad prays- you get my point. So how am I supposed to face these precious, happy children, who literally have nothing, and be able to keep it together? A friend from RCRI {the organization we will be supporting in Rwanda} told me that God will instill in me a strength to face these children, love on them {and probably fall in love with a one or two} and then be able to walk away. I so badly want to be strong for these kids and have been praying that God will not allow my heartbreak to show.

In some aspects, I feel like Cory and I have been talking about this trip to Rwanda for ages but in other ways, I feel like the past nine months have been a whirlwind and absolutely flown by. What I do know is that throughout this whole process, we’ve been blown away by the generosity from the people in our lives. From helping us pack, cleaning our house and feeding us dinner this past week, to encouraging words, praying over us and probably the biggest-helping us raise funds, Cory and I have been in awe time and time again. We are so undeserving of this incredible opportunity but for some reason God chose us and put just the right people {at just the right time} into our lives to make this trip possible. We are so grateful for every person that has helped us along the way {you know who you are!} and blessed far beyond what we could ever imagine.

We’ve got a plane to catch so without further ado, I’m signing off for awhile but don’t you worry…I’ve got some awesome ladies that will be taking over for me the next two weeks and a couple scheduled post that I couldn’t pass up! I can’t wait to share my pictures, stories and heart with y’all when I get back :)