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I’m back…sorta.

September 26, 2014 /

Where do I even begin???

The past three weeks have been an absolute blur. I blinked and before I knew it, I’m back from Rwanda in the comfort of my own home, going to work every day.

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I really thought this transition back into normal life would be easier but I never imagined I would struggle with it like I have.

I knew the jet lag would be bad but my body has had a really hard time adjusting back to the six hour time change. On top of an already busy two weeks in Rwanda, the 30 hour travel time {17 of that being on an airplane} was exhausting. Every night, I’ve struggled to stay awake past 8:00 but I did make it to 9:00 last night {whoop, whoop!}. Even though I have no desire to return to my normal life, it would be nice if I could at least stay awake in the evenings to get some things done like laundry from our trip or heck, even just to unpack my suitcases. Not to mention, the state of our house is a train wreck.

What I didn’t expect were the emotions of coming back home. I had a extremely hard time leaving Rwanda {think bawling like a baby as the plane took off} but I didn’t think I would be experiencing the same emotions when I got home. I’ve found myself crying when I leave the dogs, crying for Rwanda, for the children, for my second family there, but most importantly, crying because I’m spending my days at work {for no other reason than to provide more for myself} when there is so much work that needs to be done in Rwanda.

 

 

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Last year when Cory boarded his flight to Rwanda, I thought that sending a piece of my heart around the world was the hardest thing I’ve ever done but little did I know that a year later, I would realize that leaving a piece of my heart there would be even harder. As you can imagine, even though I’m physically back in South Carolina, mentally and emotionally I’m not nor do I really want to be. I said it earlier that I have no desire to return to my “normal” life and my heart aches to be back in Rwanda with all the beautiful people we met. But for the time being, I know that God has placed us exactly where He wants us and until He tells us we are supposed to be somewhere else, right here is where we’ll stay. I promise you one thing though, I will never be the same Paige I was before we left.

I’m hoping my body/sleep schedule will return to normal this weekend and I will be able to start recapping my trip. I’ve got so much documented in my journal and over 2000 pictures and probably close to 100 videos {that doesn’t include what Cory has on his phone}, so obviously I will break it down by day because I don’t ever want to forget any detail. I also have my Fall Home Tour to put together.

Please bear with me the next couple weeks as I try to readjust back into the blogging world and if you don’t mind, say a little prayer that being here rather than in Rwanda gets easier as time passes.

Have a great weekend. y’all!

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