Fear

Whew…I’m exhausted. I’ve been running like a mad lady all weekend, which is no different than the past couple weekends that I mentioned here and here. 

Saturday we spent the entire day in Clemson tailgating and watching the game. It was so hot. I wasn’t expecting it to be in the mid-80’s in the middle of October. It felt good under our tent with the fans going but was a little miserable once we got in the game, sitting directly in the sun. Plus, Clemson didn’t play so well the first 3 quarters. I’m pretty sure every Clemson fan was starting to sweat that we’d lose to Boston College.

Thank goodness we didn’t lose.

Even the sun and crappy not so good ball playing didn’t ruin the fun Cory and I had with the Forresters and the Castos joining our tailgate. We are so blessed to have such good friends.

Since Cory started night shift tonight, he had to stay up all night last night and sleep today. He cleaned up most of the house last night and this afternoon, I finished getting the house and food ready for our community group tonight. It is only the second time we’ve met but we’ve got a great group of people and I can’t wait to get to know these people more and continue on this journey together.

Our pastor has been doing a series called “Pain Management” and today’s topic was ‘Dealing With Our Emotions: Fear’. While listening to his service, I couldn’t help but think about my fears in starting this blog. It took me months to get the courage up to even start working on it. I’m my own worst critic and was so afraid of failure that it stopped me from doing something I enjoy.  A few points from Joel, our pastor, were:

• Fear paralyzes us, enslaves us to uncertainty, and consumes us
• Fear destroys relationships, steals our joy, and never allows you to grow spiritually
• Fear will drive you to your destiny if you learn to manage it through Him
• The way to conquer our fear is to acknowledge it, change your focus, and to serve.

I feel like I’ve acknowledge my fear of failure and rejection and I think it’s only normal to have these fears. I was afraid. I’m still afraid. Blogging is way out of my comfort zone but I enjoy it. I’ve shifted my focus from the fear to becoming a better blogger by doing a lot of research on how to make my blog successful. It occurred to me today that this shouldn’t be my main focus.

Don’t get me wrong, I do think it is important to want to be a better blogger but my main focus should be how I can use this blog to serve the Lord.

You see, I have a relationship with Christ and it’s my responsibility as a Christian to plant the seed of Christ in others.

Joel asked the question today “Do you want to? Not can you but do you want to? Do you want more?” God has a purpose for each and every one of us but you have rise to challenge and just go for it. With His help, you will reach your destiny.

I’d love to talk to you more if you are interested in a relationship with Christ. Trust me, you won’t regret your decision.

Okay…time to watch some Walking Dead so I hope y’all have a great week!